Fear and trembling seems to have gotten a hold on me the last few days. Last night my blood pressure was a little high, along with a clenched jaw and super tense muscles. (if I can still call the saggy mess on my bones muscles.) Why did I find myself in such a state? Simply because I spent hours on U-Tube watching doomsday videos. I don't watch the television at all---why would I?---the internet is enough to throw me into major depression.
The prepping vids are especially interesting to me. I am a prepper at heart. Oh, if only! A bunker in the wilderness loaded with food and supplies sounds great to me. To actually survive what's no doubt coming, though, I know it will only be by the hand of God. For me, its kinda like when I was a kid with a Sears Robuck catalog, wishing for just about everything. Nowadays I wish for all the things necessary to thrive in a world knocked back into the dark ages, with wars, famine, and danger everywhere. Where so many of the ones preparing, though, are hoping to rebuild and make it a better world after the dust settles, I have a different viewpoint based on the Word of God.
I believe we are almost in or already in the tribulation period which will end when Jesus comes again. He will judge this wicked world and set up His thousand year kingdom on the earth. Yes, the fear of nuclear war is overwhelming! There are millions who will die not knowing Jesus. That is painful to think about. Oh, so very painful!
It grieves me that people I know and love ignore God and by default, choose the evil. Whose end is hell! I yearn for them to look up to redemption in Jesus Christ. To forsake the world and the wickedness, hatred, and destruction and to embrace the pure goodness and love of God.
Yes, I am old and live in a nursing home, There is absolutely nothing I can do to physically prepare for the horrendous days ahead. Thank God, He has simplified it for this old gal. He expects me to depend upon Him alone! I think he expects the same thing of all His people, whether they have actually put aside any beans and rice, bullets or survival gadgets and gear or not. Its wonderful to be prepared to feed and defend yourself and your family. Ultimately we must look to God for survival in this world and entering into the next one. This world in its present state is living on borrowed time, hanging by a thread, and crying out for redemption. Father God directed Noah to build and stock the arc but before Noah even began such an overwhelming project, he had to trust God. He had to keep trusting all those years before the flood came. He had to trust God while enduring the mockery and hatred of the wicked society around him. I know he may have had doubts, fears, and frustrations, but when the rain began to hit the roof, don't you know he was relieved he believed!
So here I sit with my memories and regrets. I let myself get the mully grubs at times I am sorry to say. God, help me to believe in Your Word....in Your Presence always with me. I have no illusions of surviving the horrendous days ahead but I know I will go to be with Jesus. Not because of anything good I have done to deserve heaven but because I belong to Him. I am bought with the blood, washed by the blood, and kept by the blood of the lamb. If you don't understand about the blood of Jesus, ask God to explain it in a way you will know! I pray for the souls of the lost that they might become children of God, washed in the blood and walk in the Holy Light of God's Love forever and ever. amen
I pray for you! That you will know Him! Jesus loves you. He died on the cross for every precious life on the planet, you included.
