The Enemy

THE ENEMY

I have an enemy of my soul

He has stalked me all my years

From a child 'til now I'm old

He has filled my life with fears

When but a girl so small

With wonder and hope in my heart

When I understood not at all

The enemy had his hateful start

When and how did he begin

To torment and fill me with despair

Did he ride upon an evil wind

Using hateful words to ensnare

Just how he got his ugly start

Probably I'll never know

Oh, how he crippled my childish heart

He proved to be my bitter foe

He made me wish I were dead

Carefree days of childhood he stole

My paths wandered where he led

He made my heart stiff with cold

He entwined himself around me

He etched my face with a frown

I wondered sometimes what I could be

If only I wasn't always down

Then I met Jesus and let Him in

He became my savior so sweet

He loved me and became my friend

He melted my heart with Holy heat

Still, the enemy stayed near me

Refused to give up ground

Oh Lord Jesus, how can this be?

You lift me up and he pulls me down

Jesus, I will name my enemy

He is called "depression"

Jesus I do want to be free

Hear my sad confession

I let him bend and warp me

Helplessly I flounder in blackest gloom

Overcome with fatigue, unable to flee

Guilty 'cause I gave him room

Jesus, You are my hope now

Why am I at times overcome

Why do I scrape and bow

To that filthy evil one?

The only peace I have known

The only beauty, the only happiness

Comes directly from Your throne

Jesus, You alone are my rest

Jesus, the enemy is lurking still

In the shadows, he's most always there

He fiendishly attempts to kill

Me with hopelessness and despair

Why do I let him rampage

Why can't I bid him go

Why can't I resist his savage

Attacks?  I just don't know

Why do I forget from time to time

That Jesus is living within

Jesus, my only hope devine

Jesus, my true and trusted friend.

No matter how the enemy tries

Jesus, you always hold him back

You always hear my silent cries

You have the courage that I lack

Cause me to keep my eyes upon You

Strengthen me with Your might

Lead me in all Your will to do

Together we will win this fight.

     If anyone reads this who suffers from depression, I pray you will be encouraged and know that Jesus will substain us in the darkest of times if we trust Him to do so.  I still love the child's song, "Jesus loves me, yes I know, for the bible tells me so.  Little ones to Him belong, we are weak but He is strong!   God bless.   CS